Last night I decided that I’m starting the month of June off with a clean slate reading-wise, which includes returning all books to library that I’ve borrowed but haven’t read yet. That decision also encompasses books that I had started, but just wasn’t finding the energy to finish. Furthermore, this morning I decided I’m free to read what I want and that I’m not going to play by their rules anymore.
When I say “their” rules, who do I mean? First, I mean my own rules that I established earlier this year and since I’m not going to live by them anymore, I’m not going to provide links to them. Second, and always, in case you’ve missed it previously, “the rules of publishers.” I follow a lot of book bloggers on Twitter and in my reader, and most, not all, are caught up with what they’re reading and reviewing for publishers. Personally, as someone who prefers, for the most part, reading books at least a year or more old, I never understood the appeal of being bound to read recent releases — and then committing to write reviews on those books for publishers. I don’t need the pressure. I have enough pressure deciding what book I’m reading without all that.
So as one of my friends on Twitter asked me, “What did you plan to start with?” and I answered: “don’t know yet…no plans, whenever I make plan, it always fails.” I then told her “I might try books that are already on my shelves that I haven’t read instead of getting books at the library — or might not.” She responded that was the “way to commit to no planning.”
Of course, ironically, committing to no planning is committing to planning, because you are planning to not plan. If I deny there is any authority or established order, am I not conversely acknowledging that chaos is the established order? Well, I could philosophize about this ouroboros all day, but needless to say, I’m not going to do that.
Instead, whatever the definition of “free” and its inherent limitations, I’m going to revel in the fact that I’m free…
So what are you planning on reading this month or are you like me and just going with the flow?